model pics update

eek

today was so helpful and but has also left me really confused. I totally agree that i am detaching myself from my work and being a bit of a snob about the people who inhabit this virtual world I have been looking at, but on the other hand, doug's suggestion that i tell steve that i am the 'wandering minstrel' is totally unfeasible (although i understand why the suggestion was made) because I have to keep up a professional relationship with him. On the other hand, what am I doing on this course if I am not going to really invest myself into it fully? And can i do this if i am still doing what is, effectively, my safety option, by working in architecture part-time? I do have to earn a living and there are people depending on me - but is that going to dictate my work forever? am i an artist or a designer? does it matter? AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

well my model fell apart on the way home, so i'm not going to fix it, i am going to reconstruct it in a different way... let's just see what happens.

still going!


am feeling really motivated at the moment, which is so great, have been waiting for this to kick in and am so relieved. Have been working on this model - although its not really a model, because its really an end in its own right, rather than a design tool. Not quite sure what it is, but i felt the need to somehow make real the spaces i have been moving through virtually... Also have been thinking about this film i started, and this whole liveness thing, am not quite sure where its going next but its definitely heading somewhere!


I loved the Simon Vincenzi talk, I thought he was fascinating, I wish i could climb inside his head for a day. I think it was that that really kicked off this sudden motivation. hmmmm...

The Andersen Project, on the other hand, i was rather disappointed by. I thought the imagery was a bit crappy, the use of space pretty unexciting and the content not particularly gripping, although it was semi-interesting to learn about hans christian andersen, having been a huge childhood fan. i cannot deny however that LePage's performance was very good indeed. would love to know if i missed the point somehow... Also the subtitles kept missing their cues which was really annoying!

at last...

I am DOING rather than just thinking. A rather tentative beginning, but a beginning none the less and now i feel ready to take on the world! Having spent a few days sketching and pretending that was work, I finally went out this morning with ed to bishops park in fulham and did some filming. I haven't finished yet, but i wanted to see how far we'd get using as a script the print-out of the events in the 'kingdom of the candles' on this forum i mentioned before. So ed very kindly took on the role of my alter-ego - the idea of putting myself in front of the camera was just too much when it came to it - in fact i found it quite interesting as i realised that a lot of ed was invested in the construction of the 'wandering minstrel'. So, as in the forum, he entered the 'kingdom' (park) with relative ease and having failed to attract any attention at the gate house, he went to investigate a side gate. The Bishops Palace in the park is currently undergoing refurbishment, so the only other people around in the grounds were builders, who ignored us completely, so ed wrote a note to the queen (following the 'script') and posted it (well, he threw it over the gate), then he went to sit in a tree and wait for a response. Surprise, surprise, none came...

Next i want to look a bit closer at this idea of alter-ego, but I don't want to make this a piece of self-exploration... anyway will continue to build this 3d map of the kingdom of the candles and might look at some element of costume and see if i can do a bit more filming before i give the camera back on thursday

what a relief to be working at last!

nearly nearly

i am still feeling a little bit frustrated, but i think i have almost broken through it. I have started to construct a language for a kind of online performance, in the forum I mentioned last time. Unfortunately I used so many links that the administrators closed down the thread (conversation) I was 'performing' in. Obviously that made me really popular with the other people using the same thread. But, fortunately, I printed out my performance before that happened (and some of the reactions to it). I even have an online admirer! But I decided to take a break from that forum, partly because I have a life and these things take serious time commitment and partly because they were threatening security checks on all new members after the 1st thread got closed down - i don't want these strange people knowing my true identity!

So now I am starting to bring these experiences into real space and time. First I am trying to construct my own 3d mind-map of the 'kingdom of the candles' and the events that happened there. Second, I am going to reconstruct some of these events in the 'real world'. I am hoping to be able to create something which I can look at as a finished piece quite soon, so that I can move on - I feel I need to do this but i know that the concept is only at an intermediary stage, so i want to get it done a.s.a.p.

Am feeling very refreshed after spending the weekend in Spain with my brother and am keen to get on. Am just a bit annoyed to find so many interesting things on our schedule over the next couple of weeks when I am working, I suppose that was inevitable. I have to be quite restrained, as I now have so many things on the boil, each of which could take up 7 days a week if I let them.